This past weekend was my dads 5th anniversary, and I was in college so the day was totally different than it would have been if I was in Tampa. I woke up that morning to a few sweet texts from my friends back home, and an empty suite. Both my roommates had gone home for the weekend, so I was alone. It was a little hard in the morning, just getting up and realizing that my dad was gone, and no one was with me. A few minutes after 11, my neighbor texted me and invited me to breakfast, I went to get out of the lonely situation I was in. I figured, even if I was sad, it’s always better to surround yourself with people than to be alone on days like that. We went to breakfast and then came back up to our rooms and played card games for a little while. I was distracted and it was amazing. For a few minutes, I could laugh with them, and forget the pain I was in. After we had played cards for a while, my OL Sierra had texted me and invited me over. I went over to her apartment and hung out with her for a while. She listened to me talk, and cry about the day, as well as show me this werid horror movie she had seen the night before. Once again, I was distracted, distraction is good. I am really thankful to have an OL like her, that I know will always be there for me, no matter what. Sierra had to go, so I headed back to SOVI to check in with some other friends who had been reaching out to me that day.
That night my neighbors took me out to dinner. We went to Outback and it was amazing, well for one because it wasn’t SOVI dining hall, and two, I was with my friends. I thought it was really nice of them to want to take me to dinner. Those are the gestures I won’t ever forget. After dinner, we got back to school, and I thought I was pretty tired, so I came back into my room, but instead of going to sleep, I just broke down. I had been holding so much in that I wasn’t aware of that night. I texted one of my neighbors to tell her that I wasn’t coming back out to hangout. After about an hour she replied to my message and came over. She supported me in a the hard time I was having, and it meant a lot to me. It had finally hit me that night, that I had just gotten 5 years without my dad. That is crazy and just amazing. I have grown so much stronger in these past 5 years. I can really see myself growing as a person, and I know my dad is smiling because I am working really hard in school and life. I have learned so much about what life is really all about. It is not about just material things, it is about friends, family, experience, everything we live for. Wake up in the morning and be excited to go to class, or go to work, even if it is a Monday morning. God only gives us one life to live, make it count. I live to inspire other people, and live my life to the fullest. I will be the first one to tell you that life is so short, and there is nothing you can do about it.
Reflecting on Saturday, and just my life in general, I am so thankful for the people I have in my life. The people back in Tampa who constantly show love and support, and my new friends in college that have changed my life by being a part of it.
“It is truly the little things that make life so big”