“When life gives you something that makes you feel afraid that’s when life gives you a chance to be brave.”
I know it’s been a while since I have posted anything on here, and for that I apologize. Honestly, lately I haven’t been inspired whatsoever to write. But tonight as I sit here on my bed in my dorm, listening to a Christian album my roomie created on spotify, I feel all of the sudden inspired by God to write.
It’s been a crazy week or so in my life, but honestly when is it not? I have been bouncing back and forth with my faith, and trusting God but today I was reminded just how much I really need to trust Him. Today I had my first observation at a high school. (side note, I am an education major) It was a really good experience, but as I was sitting there listening to the teacher talk about biology, and genes, I wondered to myself ” I can’t believe in a few years that this could be me”. It’s really scary for me right now because I have NO IDEA how my life is going to play out. Lately, at ignite and in small group we have been talking about God’s plan for our lives. We may have a 5 year plan for our life, but God is probably going to shake that up…sorry to break it to ya. It’s hard to think that, it takes a certain about of bravery, and fatih to put our lives in God’s hands.
It’s especially hard for me because trusting God isn’t something I am good at. Every since He took my dad, I have a hard time putting my trust in Him. It’s something I pray about daily, and hope that I can grow in during the next few years of my life. I know I need God, but it’s hard to put your trust in someone who let such a tragedy happen. I am so thankful for the people I have in my life who I can pray with about this hardship. I want to be able to put my trust fully in God again, and I am almost there. I want to pursue God, and in order to do that, I have to work at it everyday. I know I’ll never not miss my dad, but I know that He is waiting for me on the other side. I stand firm in my faith, and I know I will see him again. I have two fathers in heaven. I like thinking about it like that. I have both my heavenly father, and my earthy father up there cheering me on, and that fills my heart with so much JOY. Find positives in all the tough situations, my friends.