It’s frightening how one day, one moment, one event, can change your life completely.
I am not even sure where to start with this post, because my brain is just everywhere lately. But I have had a lot on my heart these past few days. I was home for a week for spring break, and that was a great week spent with my family, friends, and children (whom I babysit). While I was home, I did not really stick to my daily devotional, and bible reading just because I was so busy (or at least I thought I was). Towards the middle of the week I realized how anxious I was. I realized later on that it was because I was pulling away from God.
I never really felt too anxious when I was growing up. My childhood was amazing. Anxiety snuck into my life after my dad passed away. Once I lost him, I was anxious about so much. Was I going to be able to afford college? Am I going to feel safe in my house without my dad there? Are my friends going to exclude me? These were all questions that started running through my mind and I could not stop them. It is crazy how one day can can change your entire life.
“Take a step back and inhale. You’re never given anything in this world that you can’t handle. Be strong, be flexible, remember who you are and who loves you”
Now that I am in college, my anxiety is caused mainly by classes, and wishing my dad was here to see me through college. I get overwhelmed when I realize I have a big test coming up, or a lot of projects or papers due. Or when something good or bad happens and I just want to call my dad up on the phone. I freeze in my tracks, and am reminded of the day he went to Heaven.
So…how have I overcome this anxiety? I never quit but instead I open my bible, I turn to my small group, or I listen to really awesome worship music. I am blessed with an amazing support system, and a loving God. That is enough to help me through anything life could throw my way.
The bible is one of my favorite places to go when I am feeling anxious because certain verses in the bible redirect my thoughts and my heart.
Here are a few bible verses that help me through anxiety:
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God” Phil 4:6
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight” Proverbs 3:5-6
- “Even though I walk through the darkest valley,I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me” Psalm 23:4
- “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
These verses really keep me going when I am feeling down.
I also really love my small group friends who I can turn to for reassurance, or prayer when I am feeling weird. I have never met a more supportive, loving group of girls in my whole life. Throughout my childhood I was bullied, and picked on a lot. Needless to say, these girls in my small group changed my life completely, and they are the answer to my prayers. I am convinced that the good Lord put these friends in my life for a reason.
“Your friends should motivate, and inspire you. Your circle should be well-rounded and supportive. Keep it tight. Quality over Quantity, Always”
I was given a prayer-book as a gift a few years back and I found a prayer that I want to share today. It is a short prayer for guidance by Thomas À Kempis. If we feel guidance by the Lord in our lives there will not be any room for anxiety to sneak in.
The prayer goes like this:
O Lord, You know what is best for me. Let this or that be done as you please. Give what You will, how much You will, and when You will” Amen