We don’t grow when things are easy. We grow when we face challenges.
It’s Wednesday. I have made it half way through this grueling week, with just a few more days to go. I honestly wish I could just snap my fingers and it be over already. I am not looking forward for what is to come this weekend.
It’s the beginning of October, and for you people who have known me for a while you know that it is my least favorite month of the whole year. My dad’s anniversary is coming up on Sunday, and it has already been 6 whole years without him. I am still trying to get it through my head that he has been gone for 6 years. That’s such a long time. I am currently a sophomore in college, and when he passed away I was in eighth grade at a small little school. So much has changed. This week has been one of many emotions, and it has been so hard to keep focused on everything I have to get done before this weekend. I have tests, homework, commitments, and it’s just hard to find the balance I need to accomplish it all in a time like this. The focus I typically have is lacking. I am just forcing myself to get this stuff done to the best of my ability.
I will be spending this weekend on a retreat with my church group, and I am pretty excited to go, but part of me is pretty nervous too. I am kinda starting to regret the decision, but I have just been ignoring that small regret. It is hard to predict how I will be feeling late Saturday into Sunday. I have already been starting to feel off and it is only Wednesday so hopefully I can keep it together. It is different every year, but it is still never easy. I am in college now, and in a way it’s harder since I am not able to be with my family. But- I am thankful that I am going on this trip with my roommate, Olivia. She has been supporting me so much since last year when I met her around this time, and it takes some of the worry away knowing I will have her to help me get through this weekend. God has blessed me with such a supportive and caring friend, and I love being able to count on her.
I have yet to find out why God chose to put me through all of this, and truthfully it is something I probably won’t ever get the answer to, until I get to ask God myself. I have learned so much in the past 6 years about life. Life is so fragile, and stuff happens everyday in this world. It is so important to be nice to everyone, and just be a light to people. Don’t take anyone for granted, because you never know when God will need them back, and always tell the people you love that you love them, you never know when it will be the last time.
I am taking a break from blogging until after my dad’s anniversary, so I will have another update sometime next week. Have a great weekend, and please keep me in your prayers on Sunday!